New Age, healing, meditation, crystals…..weird, right?  I thought so (or at least I once did)!  My spiritual journey started about a half a century ago when I was brought into this world by a woman named Darilyn.  My Mother was a Free Spirit, who eventually owned a New Age Book Store with that same name.  She wrote poetry and was always reading, studying and searching for her spiritual truth.  I grew up with principles she learned through A Course in Miracles, Edgar Cayce and Louise Hay, just to name a few.  I was initiated into Transcendental Meditation in the 70's at the young age of 9, long before crystals and meditation were considered "cool".  I attended Edgar Cayce's A.R.E. Camp when I was 11 and even helped out at my Mom's New Age store where I would receive spiritual readings at a very young age.  I loved all this….until one day my EGO/FEAR decided to show up. 

 

When you are born, you have no fear or worries.  You are not born to hate or fear or to feel not "good enough".  But over time, unfortunately, environment, friends and even family, unknowingly instill and bring forth both fear and ego.  Hence, in my later teenage years, I thought my Mother was embarrassing and wanted nothing to do with her "New Age Weirdness".  I often hid the fact that I knew how to meditate, had crystals or that it was MY Mother owned that "very strange" bookstore in our tiny, little town.  I did, however, always have that need to help anyone I could. 

 

When I was young, I had my Mother bring me to the local hospital so I could donate all my Halloween candy to the kids on the pediatric floor who were too sick to "Trick-or-Treat".  I also befriended a woman named Neta who many knew in our small town as the "Bag Lady" and collected money for Easter Seals. 

 

The desire to help was ALWAYS present, but, due to my EGO, as a grown up, I searched for that inner-happiness with each and every job I took.  Career after career…  I became a licensed beautician, a certified paralegal, a property manager and I even obtained my real estate license.   I always excelled at whatever I did….top of my class, industry awards, but something was always missing.  I searched time and time again, career after career, for that true happiness….for that job that would "light me up".  It wasn't until many years later, after a bitter divorce and some very hard times, my life changed when my beloved Mother passed away.  Before she passed, after my difficult divorce, I was coming back around to that "weird" spiritual stuff that I grew up with.  Before my Mother passed, we would practice meeting in our dreams and passing messages on to each other….it even worked a few times! 

 

On May 20th, 2013, I had a dream.  I dreamt my mother was laying in a bed of bright, beautiful, golden light.  There was so much light that I couldn't even see my Mother, but I knew it was her.  I saw two rows of cherubim-like angels, also surrounded by this beautiful, bright light, come down…one row by her head, and one row by her feet.  They glided down in these glorious, angelic rows of beautiful light and gently lifted her up.  My Mother was ascending in a blanket of the most glorious, heavenly, light….and then she was gone.  The dream was over. 

 

A few hours later, I got the dreaded call.  My sister-in- law called to tell me that my Mother passed away that morning.  I told her, "I know. I saw the angels come and take her".  I felt utter and complete sadness at that time, but I also felt a sense of gratitude and peace.  Gratitude that I was so connected to my Mom, to the Divine, to something so much bigger than me, that I was able to witness so much love and light as she passed.  I considered that a huge MIRACLE and BLESSING!  Witnessing that is what helped me gracefully get through the next few weeks.  Then, about 6 months later, I received a message from my Mom.  The message was from her, but was not in her voice.  It came to me in a dream with no visuals…..just a voice.  It repeated itself over and over and over.  I was meant to remember it.  The voice, from my Mother, said, "My Prophet says that you are my Healer".  This confused me greatly.  I know that is exactly what the voice said but it didn't make sense to me.  How could I be her healer?  She is the one in Heaven, she is the one who is supposed to be my angel…..MY HEALER!   I struggled for awhile not knowing what this message, that I was clearly meant to remember, meant.  Did I get the message wrong?  I know what I heard.  I started to really think about those words…..YOU ARE MY HEALER!  I always wanted to be a healer, but I clearly wasn't.  I was a single mom who could cut hair, draft legal documents and could buy, sell and manage real estate.  I certainly couldn't heal anyone.  I knew if I could do anything in the world, if I had no fear or ego, I would have some kind of healing store like my Mom.  A place where people would walk in and feel love and miracles….feel hope and be inspired, and …be healed! 

 

I started thinking more about the message from my Mom.  Me… a Healer?  Me… a Healer.   Me…a HEALER….YES!  I had been a healer all along.   All of this was stirring around inside me as I was slowing starting to lose my EGO and lose my FEAR.  I always wanted to heal and to help, but I was always afraid.  How would I do it?  Where do I start?  I had no idea!  So, I created a vision board.  I started putting ideas on paper.  Those ideas led me to take some classes.  Those classes led to Certifications.  I was started to attract like-minded people.  Everything was coming together….slowly, piece by piece. 

 

I am now a Reiki Master and  Holistic Life Coach.  I have even opened up my very own healing studio called Earth Angel Awakening!  Allowing myself to be "open" to my mother's "weirdness", allowed me to receive the most miraculous messages from her and the Divine.  I am so thankful that I chose my Mom and all her "weirdness", otherwise, I would not have been open to receive these beautiful messages from her.  She was brave enough to know what her soul's path was and didn't care what others thought. She had no EGO or fear.   I have finally kicked my EGO/fear to the curb and have awakened my inner light.  Follow your truth and what lights you up and don’t ever worry about what others think.  Start small, take baby steps.  Following your inner light will make you so happy.  So it's easy for me to now answer the question:  New Age, healing, crystals, ….WEIRD?  No, it's NOT weird.  It's amazing! You might be surprised at the amazing miracles and blessings you can receive once you give in to your soul's desires and follow what lights you up!